holding light and giving permission to need


i know enough now to take every bit of generosity, graciousness, and kindness that is offered my way.  sometimes it’s hard though… feels a bit greedy and (ugh!) needy even, but it is simply where i am at these days.  i am in need.

why is it so hard to give ourselves permission to need?

everyone has needs (reminder to self), and at certain times we need more than others.  the hard part is identifying and voicing those needs, trying to not be too judgey about them (even the one that wants to eat potato chips), figuring how to best meet them in a real and nurturing way (okay, so the chips probably aren’t the best modus operandi) , and especially in practicing self-kindness in asking for help and support.

ah, this lesson is unending.

while i’m wading through what i need in my life right now and taking it day by day, there has already been a serious abundance of loving kindness poured into my world… offers to help with my boys, the studio, and hands reaching out to hold my heart and that of my entire family, special prayers are being sent, and sacred space is being held for me all in light and love allowing me to release a little of my white knuckle grip heading into the deep dark unknown.

simply, the kindness of others is staggering.

what would i do without all of you?  i shudder to think.

gratitude. gratitude. gratitude.


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  1. Jennifer says:

    It can be so difficult at times to ask for help, to reach out, to say what it is we really need. It feels selfish, but truly is the best thing we can do for ourselves and those around us. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Sending lots of love and light your way as you navigate through this difficult time. xo